Tuesday, February 09, 2010
9:27 AM
I don't deny that i went all the way to club or to the city sitting down sipping coffee just to look at gorgeous peoples around,
the way they doll up,
the shopping bags they carries
and of course what i like to see most,
features of humans( oh yeah i loveeeeeeee looking at faces because no one has 100% identical features not even twins)
The first thing i see on a human,
not their sexy legs nor their eyes but nose.
Yes,
the first thing i see on anyone passing by me from an infant to old folks is their nose,
maybe because i think i don't have a gorgeous one (I WAN HIGHER NOSE BRIDGE!!!)
or just that i'm weird.
I used to tell mum how desperate I want to have plastic surgery not on anywhere else but nose,
a tall sharp gorgeous attractive nose,
but mum always say that mine is gorgeous enough and i don't need them(i think she lie lie oni lorh cause dun wan sponsor me T_T).
Now i'm a grown up(hmm I THINK! HAHA)
though deep in ma heart i still feel that everyone elses nose are gorgeous but mine
I now decided that plastic surgery is a bad bad choice because having braces is already one of the item in I REGRET DOING IT list,
i kind of misses what god and mum gave me
the cute little tiger teeth i used to hate so much (i still remember stupid primary friends ask me whether do i suck blood RAWR ! maybe i should suck theirs for asking me such a ques and giving me sleepless nite worrying i'll turn into a vampire and suck daddy and mummy's blood)
So i wonder what if after having a tall nose bridge i then have to complain ma face is too big to match the pair of nose then i'll have to sharpen ma face,
then ma tiny little eyes might not bring out the features of ma face but a pair of huge gorgeous blinky blinky (maybe honey brown)eyes,
then a need to have sexy abs to carry out the face(cannot be a guy with such a great features matching a fat tummy),
then i might not be tall enough to carry out the body i need to add bones into ma legs,
maybe a tan skin tone to give me more masculinity(though i wish to have fair white skin because it looks clean!)
oh i might need a brazilian wax by that time too because i'll be going to the beach to show off ma sexy body(without body hair ! WAKAKA)
In the very end i might look like
THIS ! (gosh it will cost me a fortune ! HAHAHAHA!)
OR You women(who is reading ma blog) may looks like
THIS !
LIFE WILL BE SO WONDERFUL no ?
every pair of eyes will just follow wherever you go,
no matter what you are wearing(in their mind u better don't wear anything) or what you are carrying.
One question,
How long beauty stays ?
Another,
How do you define beautiful ?
All these questions kind of bombard me after staying with a both old couple,
what will we be when we are old ?
They seems to wake up had breakfast and went into their room watching tv,
maybe went out and walk around and go back to their own room,
uncle will be cleaning his antiques and auntie will be cleaning the house again and again and again,
cleaning any single dust in the house.
What will ma life be when i'm old ?
Will I be sitting down there(alone?) watching tv 24/7?
Wake up super early-breakfast-TV-NAP(old ppl loves doing this)-lunch-tv-NAP-tv-dinner-tv-SLEEP super early?
All these question sum into one big question,
What are we doing here on earth ?
or do u want it to be WHAT ON EARTH ARE WE DOING HERE?
I took ma own sweet time walking from home to office(which is so very long to me)
thinking and thinking all these questions(which i have yet to find an answer to them)
Are we here cause we want to learn?
Why do we learn ?
We gain knowledge and we saves people, help victims in courts or even passing down the education(in short TO WORK)
but then another question came,
What for ? MONEY you say ?
then i'll have another question,
you work so hard for money and you have wealth but in the end you have no health,
in the end you spend a fortune trying to keep yourself survive (let's say in a luxury hospital) having to suffer from surgery or even needles,
and then you are dead.
Can you bring your money along?
So there it goes another circle back to the topic,
Why are we here?
Wanting so hard being gorgeous and have every single attention on you?
In the end you might have everyone looking at you when you are young but what if from
This and this(though i think the ads really sells HAHA),
you turn into
This and this ?
Will you still be buying ARMANI if they are still modeling for the ads ?
Money is immortal,
but beauty can be,
if you found true love,
who will still loves you and think that you are gorgeous(when your hair turns grey, when you start losing your teeth,when your gorgeous face wrinkled up or even boobs hanging down due to the forces of gravity),
and of course love who will stay with u through thick and thin,
it doesn't matter if it's your partner, your family or your friends,
as long as it's LOVE.
That's why i felt in love with Sonnet 18 even the first time reading it,
it is so beautifully written.
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
(William Shakespeare, 1609)
I think my answer to why I AM HERE (because everyone has diff answers-to them wealth might still stands for them),
is to search for happiness,
still it takes (at least) two to tango,
laughing at someone elses joke,
their funny faces or even sometimes misses someone so much can make you happy,
so indirectly i need to search for LOVE.
Though money can still buy love(what about true ones?),
can buy attention,
can buy you almost everything(even bring you to the outer space),
but do they buy you LONG TERM HAPPINESS ?
Friends and of course family(though i don't think they will be reading this),
I love you and please if god thinks that it's time for me to go back before you,
don't mourn too long,
smile or laugh thinking how silly boy i am,
making funny faces, telling silly jokes, or maybe me maself already looks funny and keep me in your memory,
so that i'll be immortal,
the love between us will be immortal,
because if i love seeing you guys happy,
just a smile will do !(better if it's a big grin from ears to ears) NGEK !
I know you guys still can't resist all these temptation so i share share with you la new ARMANI model ! sharing is caring ma !
and of course ma picture for you guys who misses me a lot !
MUAH !!!
MISSES U GUYS TOO ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
Honghongtan♥
2 people <3 me !
